Rebirth
It's been exactly one month since I've moved home. I finally feel more settled down to unpack what went on in my head for the last two months...
For starters, I have finally achieved my primary long-term goal set for five years. I am proud of myself. During this time, I have wanted to give up many times but I didn't. Ultimately, I did not allow myself to throw in the towels because of all the opportunities I had access to in my life. I cannot waste what I have, I simply won't allow it. I also do not want to let down the people who showed me love and support. They believed in me even when I didn't understand why. I am glad I stood tall and moved forward. I have been in celebration surrounded by the results of my hard work and it feels extra special to be in this position now.
I am very thankful.
After multiple rounds of reunion that led to transitions between my old and new characters, I believe now is a good time to reflect on who I want to be during this rebirth. I love the new me that I have became during my time held in hostage. Diamonds are created under immense pressure. What shone through is my courage to set healthy boundaries, the trust in my daily decisions while navigating the known unknowns, my accountability mindset, my kindness, my dedication to my mental and physical health, my positively honest self talk, and the open heart to experience. These are what I carry with me into my rebirth while shedding judgements, victimhood, entitlement and ego.
I had to battle the never ending debate of self love vs selfishness:
Is it selfish to cut people who were no longer serving my life because of self love?
Yes.
Is it mean to talk about them while I defend my decision?
Yes.
Do I have to stop defending my decision?
Yes.
Am I selfish?
Yes.
Do I love myself?
Yes.
Is this wrong?
No.
Every single of one us have an unique opportunity to have the right to free choice. Not freedom, choice. In every waking moment, we are simultaneously making so many decisions. The unconscious choices are guided by our values, which are imparted by our life experience. This is Victor Frankl's main discovery while he wrote Men's Search for Meaning. What is hard are the conscious choices. The ones that we do differently against auto-pilot because we are thirsty for change.
I have yet to find my meaning or purpose now that I am home. As my living conditions drastically changed over night, I had to be extra mindful to not let the changes get to my head. Deep down, what's important to me is still my purpose. Right now, as my time is consumed by settling down and reigniting my social circle, my purpose has taken a backseat. My priority right now is about fulfilling prior commitments and that is more than enough for me at this moment. I do not want to create too much stress over my body that I burn out. I should enjoy my time and lean into the fun. Only when my life is stable can there be space for creativity.
Reading by Demi on July 28th, 2025
Will my long-time wish come true in the next month or so?
Ace of Pentacles – Energy of Potential and Manifestation
This is a powerful card to begin with. The Ace of Pentacles suggests that the seeds of your wish are being planted now — or are already in the soil, ready to sprout. This card represents new opportunities in the material world: finances, work, home, health, or tangible manifestations of your desires. It’s a very promising sign that something solid and grounded is either beginning or soon arriving. However, Aces often signal potential more than instant results — think of it as the door opening, but you still have to walk through.
The Hierophant – Structure, Tradition, Commitment
The Hierophant brings in an element of structure, divine timing, or the influence of institutions or traditions. It can suggest that your wish is aligned with your long-term growth and values — but may require you to follow a process or remain committed to a path that isn’t always fast or flashy. This card can also imply the involvement of someone wiser or more experienced (a mentor, teacher, or guide), or that help might come from an established system — like education, spirituality, or even bureaucracy. It’s a gentle reminder that wishes come true when aligned with your values and when you respect the timing and lessons life brings.
10 of Swords Reversed – Healing and Recovery
In the reversed position, the 10 of Swords signals a turning point after pain, burnout, or disappointment. If this wish is something you’ve held onto through difficult times, this card says that the worst is behind you, and you’re slowly entering a phase of renewal. Emotional or mental healing is essential here — your wish may be coming true as a result of finally releasing old wounds, self-sabotage, or the belief that it will never happen.
So... Will Your Wish Come True Soon?
The cards are optimistic — especially the Ace of Pentacles — but they point to a slow emergence, not a sudden breakthrough. You’re likely in a pivotal phase where the foundations of your wish are forming. The outcome depends on your continued commitment, faith in divine timing, and willingness to let go of the past. So while the full fruition may take longer than a month, you're very much on the way.
Your wish is growing roots — keep nurturing it.
Reading by Demi on July 28th, 2025
Am I on the right track?
What You Need to Know: 8 of Swords Reversed
The reversed 8 of Swords suggests that you're beginning to break free from mental restrictions or self-imposed limitations. Where you may have once felt stuck, confused, or powerless, there's now a growing awareness that the obstacles ahead are not as binding as they seemed. The universe is highlighting a shift in your mindset — you're starting to see that you do have choices, and that freedom begins with clarity and courage. You're being encouraged to trust this internal shift and recognize that the way forward lies in claiming your power and trusting your instincts. Let go of outdated fears or beliefs that no longer serve you.
A New Perspective: 2 of Swords
As you open your eyes to new possibilities, the 2 of Swords reminds you that you're still at a crossroads — perhaps avoiding a decision or holding conflicting truths. You may be trying to stay neutral, overanalyzing, or disconnecting emotionally to avoid discomfort. The universe advises you to pause and gently explore what's beneath the indecision. What are you afraid to see clearly? A new perspective will come when you allow yourself to feel, not just think, your way through. This card is an invitation to tune in to your inner compass rather than waiting for external signs. Trust that your heart knows.
Action to Take: 7 of Pentacles
This card is a clear message of patience, perseverance, and long-term thinking. You are on a path that holds promise, but the universe is reminding you not to rush or become discouraged by slow progress. Now is a time to evaluate what you've invested your time and energy into — is it aligned with your deeper values? Are your current efforts sustainable? If so, keep going and tend to what you've planted. Growth is happening beneath the surface. Stay consistent, reflect often, and remember: just because you're not seeing immediate results yet doesn't mean you're off track.
You are moving in the right direction — especially as you start releasing fear and stepping into clarity. But this path requires presence, honesty, and trust in slow growth. Clear the fog, feel through the uncertainty, and keep watering the seeds you've planted. You're building something worthwhile.
The open invitation to be anyone I want to be is too tempting. I will accept this rebirth.